Oops, I said the F-word. wink.

So I am in this meeting today to discuss payables for the last fiscal year and I come to the startling realization that we may notget paid for about 10,000 USD. bullshit. So I say. "Fuck." in the meeting with the CFO, accounting specialist, and my co-worker, Kelli. Kelli looks at me like- "Claire!" and for a minute, I panick. I realize that in the comfort on my own workspace, that this is appropriate, but that in the company of others- namely the CFO- perhaps I should have searched my vocabulary for longer than.... say .05 seconds. So I look up and apologize for te outburst, claiming that the long weekend through my vocabulary a bit of balance, and also, I am a little on edge today as I have work to my ears and fleeting time. The CFO says, "Don't wory about it, my sentiments exactly, at least it was an honest response" and I breathe. Let me further explain that with this job comes great responsibility... and being BY FAR the youngest person in my feild and my profession, well, there are certain things that, spoken or not, you have to prove. So, being the personality that I am , I at times struggle with my shocking honesty laden in sarcasm vs. accomodating "I'm the new guy" approach. there id a balance, and I will find it, but today was amusing to me, and my co-workers as news travels fast.

I was away last week at a Conference for National. It was an amazing time and I realize that I work for a great organiztion and I do love my job- I do know what is going on- in fact, I could easily say tat I may be a leader in comparrison. and that feels damn good.

that boy that I referred to aboutliking hasn't called and I would like to brush it off as his loss but the truth may be that it is, in fact, my loss. disappointing, yes.

Other than that, life is grand. I am getting organiazed all the way around and that is great.

cheers to all of you.


So I just had a 25 minute phone conversation with a parent- it was not pretty. but I stood my ground, and I think I got my pint accros.... blah blah... I have a HUGE headache and it is driving me mad.

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