Damn hypocrites! Mini- RANT

People are hypocrites... in every sense of the word. And I am a hypocrite. But when you are a hypocrite to the point of being a complete douche... give me a break- I'm tired of all of you- and myself sometimes... so land your bags at the door and just be honest with yourself. I couldn't care if you lie to me.

The blessing of a great book.

Thank you Chris, for leading me into the pages of a great book. "You shall know our Velocity" by Dave Eggers.

Though is has not led me away from my insomnia, it has aided in distracting my mind. This is great.

For those of you that read this, my Birthday plans will be put into play on June 19th. My birthday is June 8th but I am pushing back the party for a few weeks in hopes of having a hold on work in order to be able to fully entertain my guests. Everyone I have ever known is obligated to be there. absolutely no gifts please, I want only for you to join me. I do not think this is too much to ask. teehee.

It is 5:00 and I am awaiting a meeting that will last until 7:00. ugh. I have been at my desk since 8:45 this morning. ugh. I had a great day on Saturday with sort of a spontaneaous "work" day- I took this guy to the zoo in Omaha and Chris went along- it was nice, but i had PMS and I though that maybe I would rip his head off if he asked me one more question about cars. I was delighted to know that is was not my patience I was loosing, rather a devastating monthly curse that men will never understand. (I sound so dramatic... I love it.)

My mom stopped by yesterday and it was nice to see her. She is going to start college in the summer to be a chemist. I am so proud of her. It feels great to be so proud of her.

Meeting time, I have to go!

loves to all.
c

RECESS!!!

I wish i had recess today. I would like to swing.

Personal Grooming do's and don'ts....

I have learned a few things today, from myself, and others, and it is only 10:47 am.

This morning I doted over my hair for nearly an hour- this is absurd. I know that the new thing is soft curls and I had to give a presentation at 8:30 in front of the entire agency... so I though that I would really catch their attention with my new soft wispy curls.... right- first of all... when you have a mane of hair comparable to mine, let it be known that there will never be such a thing a wispy.... I crimped my hair in jr. high, it was straight out of "what's Love got to do with it", I cried, and washed my hair... now that I am in control of what happens to my hair- (i.e. my mom no longer aspires to be a "beautician" and gives me bowl cuts, mullets, and rat tails, bless her) I like to think that I am in the new... why bother- seriously. After spending an hour trying to get soft curls that didn't look too perfect I bailed ship and put in the side part and pulled the hair up. I have learned never to try new things on a limited time schedule... crimping and curling... and god bless the side part half pony tail... with the right hair pins... it just looks too good sometimes. (it had a little extra wave this morning)

Secondly.. and this could easily work into a RANT.... I am at the all staff meeting where the CEO of the company is talking about agency outcome measures and goals and all that... I am listening, agreeing, and really enjoying my morning diet coke. And then I hear it- click, click...click.. sort of an unmistakable metalic click..... no- is someone clipping their fingernails? I look around and see Dan, the accounting guy who is neurotic in every way and has the social skills of a stapler.. and he is clipping his fingernails- and sitting on the floor- the only person sitting on the floor- I am horrified at his rudeness, embarrassed for him.... but surprisingly i admire him for his lack of attention to social norms. but- overall- DO NOT clip your fingernails in a meeting- it should be left for home.

Women- pluck(wax, trim, thread- whatever your preference) your eyebrows- please- for the sake of your face, groom your eyesbrow- I can barely see you.... the occasional slip is granted but if you are 25 years old and do not know how to groom your face- ... ( I am thinking of someone in particular here) she buys makeup all the time and talks about her manicures and pedicures and these new makeup brushes.. and all i can think of is, "That's a great new color, what do you call it? Hair?" I know this sounds mean spirited- but seriously... if you are that preoccupied with your looks (even if you don't have a clue ...for example- its 2004- we don't tuck in sweaters darlin') than trim the brow.


Hope all of you are able to benefit from my biased and one-sided tip column... thank you- read again next week. If anyone has questions or needs advice on grooming or other lifestyle questions, please write to me at: cblecroy@hotmail.com

Have a great week and Happy Grooming!!!

claire

I do not spell check- I apologize for the slop.

Bastard Child of the Blog Scene.

I take full credit for the month that has lapsed since my last entry... or five weeks rather. Several things have happened as of late so I will try to update all of you on as much as possible without boring you to death- actually- I am going to write thisone to get it all off of my chest. there- this is for all of you too, but its really for me....

So this is my crazy time of year- when I mean crazy I mean that I am in the midst of hiring 100 staff for summer and processing 1300 aplications for participants... if that were only the jist of it all... budget planning is in full swing and my Operations plan is due in a week... am I sweating? no. Can I sleep at night? no. Do I look on the web for other jobs on the web that I am qualified for?yes. Will I leave this job in the next three years? no. Why? Because I love what this job can be. this is my first year as a Director and it is no longer shits and giggles, but if or when I accomplish these things before me and clean up some of the messes left behind and give people opportunities that they deserve... then I will feel as if I have realy done something and then I will move on. I had an offer to interview for a poition in Sausilito, CA... rght accros the bay from San Fran... you know that was tough to pass up.... I cannot abandon the people that I told I would lead through this transition- just can't. If this were just a job.... well, I probably wouldn't be working here. But it does aggrevate me that it has now taken my sleep. Here is my current schedule... I get home from work anywhere from 5pm- 7pm (that early and will soon change) I do the dinner thing, sometimes go places... and try to be in bed by 11pm... and then I lay there... and I look at he clock... and as of late I have been reaching the 3:30 mark for last time I have looked at the clock. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't wake up at 5:30-6:00 am AGAINST my will. a favorite past time for me is setting me alarm clock for the latest possible time, and then hitting snooze a few times until I have sacrificed everything but a shower in the morning... sometimes this allows me to sleep until 7:40 am... nice. Part of the early rise thing is the sun coming up arlier...and I like that... but dammit- let me just get 8 hours and I will be alright.

So I had surgery on my other leg. I have this sort of heriditary messed up vein thing in both of my legs that creats huge greenish blue bulges in my veins... so I had the left leg stripped last July and the right one stripped March 19th. This time there were only about 30 incisions on my leg which is far better than the 50 on the last one. It took a few weeks for me to get back on my feet and even then it was rough... so that always gives me great perspective on life but at the same time it pisses me off a bit. To not be able to do things for yourself- even having people constantly asking me how I was feeling really bothered me... and that bothers me. But its alright now. Everything is healing nicely and my legs are ready for some sun.

I haven't been drinking realy at all since my surgery which has given me a new look on things.... I am not sure if I am enjoying this or not. I had a few beers a couple of weeks ago at a work function but I was feeling like shit because my leg hurt and everyone didn't know what to do with themselves because I wasn't in entertainment mode... I've set myself up for it i suppose... entertaining people I work with so we don't talk about work or anything serious.... i don't know- it was an obligitory social outing... never sets one up for succes. (last year at this event I went to another bar and gave the bartender my boots because my feet hurt... and then I forgot them.. and that was the day that Sam and i reunited awww.. silver lining)

So I am in the process of planning this years birthday bash... it seems as if I am going to push the party back a couple of weeks because I need to get camp going before I have a bunch of friends a my house to celebrate in the way that we do.... wink. I am thinking roller skating.. I will keep all of you updated.

So I was at this conference in St.Charles, IL last Wednesday through Saturday... and many fun times were had.... like the night that I woke up to my co-worker Mandy rubbing my leg and kissing my foot (she thought it was her boyfriend) or when we walked into the COACH store and the overly tan handbag quenn at the counter peered at us and said, "What, no school today?" I have a perfect redition of this that is quite exaggerated.. but a little funny. Or the "authentic" Irish pub that we went to and the waitress had such a distractin Chicago accent and she kept saying fantastic... and the plates were made in China...

Things are well with me and i am content.. if I could get a bit a sleep and get this blur out of my eyes I will be just fine. Take care all.

c